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Monday, October 29, 2007 . 9:02 PM

Over You - Daughtry


Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Tuesday, October 09, 2007 . 8:10 PM

dunno why nowadays i super emo about frens... maybe i hang out with people who take friendship ever so seriously.

now dat i just had an unpleasant argument with my mum over money matters... makes me treasure my friends even more. coz some times u just can't understand the adults. i dun understand why money must always cause argument. and i hate it. somehow my frens, despite not going through the same stuff, they understand wat my parents dun. i used to be so close to my mum, maybe not to the secret telling close, but still close, considering that i dun open up easily to anyone. recently my dad n i are able to communicate easier, and somehow conversation with my mum, ever since i got into uni, is very prone to go into an argument.

recently i had a group of frens whom i am glad to have known. we spent time with each other just talking, hanging out at cafes, listening to one another's problem. people say we should never trust people completely. i on the other hand, am difficult to trust people. but when i do trust, i trust completely. somehow, people see this as a downfall. i wonder why sometimes. then i realised, not every one in this world is for you, some of them are out to get you. still i choose to believe, if i am at the receiving end, then so be it. this group of uni frens, is one group of people i trust, albeit not all of them yet, but considering the amount of time we spent, the level of trust i have in them is amazing.

then theres my frens in church... this group is one i put my heart into, i trust them completely, especially my co leaders. and people like chi yao, enoch, david, joel, troy, ivan... even more so, i trust them with my life.

like i sed, i dun like money to come into the way of relationship. dat's why when i borrow money to frens, or help them photocopy stuff, or buy them a drink, if i can afford it, i wun ask them to pay up if they forget. coz i know they wud have done the same. or consider it a blessing.
hate it when people keep reminding of others how much people owe them. if u are so tight in the first place, then dun pinjam.

after all that have been said, i myself must first be that kind of friend. so please, help me be that kind of friend. let me know if i stepped on your toes.

and please, never betray ur frens trust. its difficult to gain it back once it is lost.