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Monday, August 27, 2007 . 6:08 PM

I wonder sometimes if people realise why i do the things i do, or act the way i act. I get a lot of comments back in secondary school, people are afraid of me cause they think i very "chuan". since today i was locked out from my own house, silly old me forgot the keys, i have a lot of time to think about myself and my environment.

the reason i keep quiet and listen is because i know dat i would dominate discussions or conversation if i were to start. sometimes i tend to alk too much, as experienced by some of my classmates today.

the reason i choose to trust and be gullible, because i know its dificult to earn someones trust, even more difficult to keep it, especially when i can be very manipulative and devious when it comes to planning.

sometimes i feel the urge to be accepted in a community, all due to my own insecurities. yet, i chose not to be desperate, but deliberate and intentional in my friends making.

people think i am a very dangerous person, as i sit and listen... ok i admit that might sound very intimidating, who knows what i plotting right in that small little space up there right? dun blame them for it... but deep down, really, i am a conservative, quiet guy. i plan to use this for a good cause leh!!! i wan to be a psychiatrist, dun u think it's an important asset to learn to sit and listen???

personally, sometimes i think i need to stretch out of my comfort zone to be effective in what i do. if i dun take any risk, then i wud achieve mediocrity. someone once said, its batter to do something and fail, than to do nothing at all.

heard this from a friend, thought it was really good and revelational.
- stop telling God how big your problem is, and start telling your problem how big your God is -

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At 1:22 PM, Blogger Confused Soul said...

boi...

1st of all, don't give a RAT'S ASS wat pple say abt u... coz' u know urself well n u know where u stand in life... n if pple were 2 go around making comments such as "cuan"<--dunno whut tht means... its their problem rite? n others who judge u on hear-say r not worth bein known at all!

DO NOT try 2 change for a comment of another but ONLY change if u FEEL like it would improve u as a person.. let GOD b the judge of that!

abt u bein quiet.. seriously ah??? n abt u listenin, its a damn good quality u know.. n i dont think u listen onli.. u do giv alot of output u know..

n ur advices r damn good..

ALWAYS b confident of who u r.. dont PUT up an act of "I'm so confident, i walk with attitude" instead feel it INSIDE n the rest would soon fall into place..

 

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